Wednesday, 16 July 2008 @ 10:43 am
21, 21, 21?? blackjackk??
28?!! tooo many!!
my favourite time of the day is between 1400-1700. it is when everyone's out of the house and its the only three hours of the day that i can be alone. it's so frustrating how others just don't get it how some people like to be alone, its even more disappointing when the "others" i'm referring to are those who are very close to your heart. today was all about fights&confrontations and buckets of tears. when you've cried so much in the day, every little thing that gets in the way will just make you tear in a snap. but don't worry, i've come to a point where i tear no more.
i hate how there is such thing as "authority". just because so and so is older it doesnt mean that whatever comes out from their mouth is right. you fight and fight so much trying to tell them what's going on but it's worthless. why? 1, they still think they are right whatever it is so they don't even bother listening to you they just expect you to agree with them or 2, they KNOW that THEY are wrong, but just because they are much older they feel embarrassed to lose the battle.
THEN, when a 3rd person comes in and listen to the confrontation, authority doesn't really work anymore. they just see the problem as it is, without keeping in mind who's older or what. the one who's at fault owns up even before letting the 3rd person finished understanding the whole matter. the thing that hurt the most is this part, the part where the one who's at fault goes
"OKAY FINE IM THE ONE WHO'S WRONG. YOU'RE RIGHT OKAY. I CAN'T ALWAYS BE PERFECT CAN I? AFTER ALL IM SO MUCH OLDER AND I'VE GOT MORE THINGS ON MY MIND THAN YOU DO, happy now?"
why can't you start it with the word "sorry". something so short and easy to say yet extremely powerful. are you too selfish to put your ego down and say the word?
in the first place, you know that you're wrong, why bother to start a fight? why be so selfish and not express your true thoughts&feelings just because you feel like proving someone wrong when they are clearly not?
i wish i can go back to Perth as soon as possible. the next day is never a better/more interesting one, in fact it gets more and more mundane. sorry if you can't contact me the whole of today, it was running low on batt, and since im so heckcare about anything&everything, i couldn't even be bothered charging it.
thank God i have my friends to keep me sane, really.
and thank God for skype too. the dude who invented it is a genius.
goodnight kiddies
Wednesday, 16 July 2008 @ 10:43 am
21, 21, 21?? blackjackk??
28?!! tooo many!!
my favourite time of the day is between 1400-1700. it is when everyone's out of the house and its the only three hours of the day that i can be alone. it's so frustrating how others just don't get it how some people like to be alone, its even more disappointing when the "others" i'm referring to are those who are very close to your heart. today was all about fights&confrontations and buckets of tears. when you've cried so much in the day, every little thing that gets in the way will just make you tear in a snap. but don't worry, i've come to a point where i tear no more.
i hate how there is such thing as "authority". just because so and so is older it doesnt mean that whatever comes out from their mouth is right. you fight and fight so much trying to tell them what's going on but it's worthless. why? 1, they still think they are right whatever it is so they don't even bother listening to you they just expect you to agree with them or 2, they KNOW that THEY are wrong, but just because they are much older they feel embarrassed to lose the battle.
THEN, when a 3rd person comes in and listen to the confrontation, authority doesn't really work anymore. they just see the problem as it is, without keeping in mind who's older or what. the one who's at fault owns up even before letting the 3rd person finished understanding the whole matter. the thing that hurt the most is this part, the part where the one who's at fault goes
"OKAY FINE IM THE ONE WHO'S WRONG. YOU'RE RIGHT OKAY. I CAN'T ALWAYS BE PERFECT CAN I? AFTER ALL IM SO MUCH OLDER AND I'VE GOT MORE THINGS ON MY MIND THAN YOU DO, happy now?"
why can't you start it with the word "sorry". something so short and easy to say yet extremely powerful. are you too selfish to put your ego down and say the word?
in the first place, you know that you're wrong, why bother to start a fight? why be so selfish and not express your true thoughts&feelings just because you feel like proving someone wrong when they are clearly not?
i wish i can go back to Perth as soon as possible. the next day is never a better/more interesting one, in fact it gets more and more mundane. sorry if you can't contact me the whole of today, it was running low on batt, and since im so heckcare about anything&everything, i couldn't even be bothered charging it.
thank God i have my friends to keep me sane, really.
and thank God for skype too. the dude who invented it is a genius.
goodnight kiddies