i'm still here but it hasn't been easy

sometimes i think too much, sometimes i think i think too much. which one is right?
wait, who knows what's right or wrong anyway?
life is a funny thing, life is a joke, we can all laugh about it, yes. but at the end of the day, who am i to judge whether it's funny or not. who am i to judge what's right and what's wrong?

this is why i simply love sundays. yes you might not get "the answers" straight away just by spending time in God's house every week. but at least, with the prayers and hymns, you are reminded that no matter what happens, no matter how much of a week it was, God is always there, He never ever abandons us. never has and never will. you know sometimes i actually feel ashamed to approach God. i pray whenever i need His help, whenever i feel that only Him can understand my problems. what about those times when i'm happy? it's silly how i do that, it's even sillier when i realize that He is the one who makes the world turn, He is the one who creates all these little thing that makes me happy.

It's like for example, whenever i do the cross sign and ask God to guide me through the whole hour or so before every exams i've done. do i thank him when it's over? do i thank him if i pass my exams? rarely. what a shame really to abandon someone who never abandons us.

there are problems that can be solved. and there are others which only takes time, and hopefully it'll fade away. maybe "others" are the punishments that God have given to me. maybe maybe. that's why it seems so small yet so hurtful.

i'm still here but it hasn't been easy

sometimes i think too much, sometimes i think i think too much. which one is right?
wait, who knows what's right or wrong anyway?
life is a funny thing, life is a joke, we can all laugh about it, yes. but at the end of the day, who am i to judge whether it's funny or not. who am i to judge what's right and what's wrong?

this is why i simply love sundays. yes you might not get "the answers" straight away just by spending time in God's house every week. but at least, with the prayers and hymns, you are reminded that no matter what happens, no matter how much of a week it was, God is always there, He never ever abandons us. never has and never will. you know sometimes i actually feel ashamed to approach God. i pray whenever i need His help, whenever i feel that only Him can understand my problems. what about those times when i'm happy? it's silly how i do that, it's even sillier when i realize that He is the one who makes the world turn, He is the one who creates all these little thing that makes me happy.

It's like for example, whenever i do the cross sign and ask God to guide me through the whole hour or so before every exams i've done. do i thank him when it's over? do i thank him if i pass my exams? rarely. what a shame really to abandon someone who never abandons us.

there are problems that can be solved. and there are others which only takes time, and hopefully it'll fade away. maybe "others" are the punishments that God have given to me. maybe maybe. that's why it seems so small yet so hurtful.